I'll Say A Prayer For You
by Ebony Bradwell
For the mothers whose sons’ lovely bones were unlawfully laid across this promised land—I say a prayer for you.From Emmet Till to Trayvon Martin and sadly enough, all the names that will never reach these pages (for their names will bleed on the paper because of the ink needed to write their names in full from the first victim to the last): Forgive those who trespass! Forgive those who trespass! Mississippi Goddam! Forgive those who trespass!
Dearly departed, I love
you so. The last year of my
lover’s life was bitter and cold
for me and I spent it out in
the world chasing “Fool’s
Gold.” Lavish single’s parties
and upscale happy hours were
my main attraction. I danced
with the devil as I chased
“Fool’s Gold.”
Geto Boys said it best:
“my mind played tricks on me.”
I struggled with the question:
should I stay or should I go?
I tried to fight for life by
watching inspirational documentaries
about gospel or
about famous people that
I admired, like Nina Simone.
Forgive me father, my
mind was dangerously wicked
and it deceived me. “God grant
me the serenity to accept the
things I cannot change; courage
to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the
difference.” You gave me time
to share joy, laughter, and
love. I am eternally grateful.
I have walked this land blessed
with the blessing of life. Just
like you. Just like you I shall
rejoice and reminisce about the
happiness and love that will
live within me for all my days
here on earth.
For me, Nina Simone’s,
“What Happened, Miss
Simone” was an incredible
documentary. Her famous song
of protest “Mississippi
Goddam,” is a true testament
to her courageous spirit,
with which I truly felt a bond.
In 1964, Nina performed
“Mississippi Goddam” to a
predominantly white audience
and explicitly expressed
her outrage for the decades of
cold-blooded murder and
injustice committed against
Black Americans that was
sanctioned by the police and
other government officials.
This bold stance put her entire
career on the line. And it
created a barrier between with
her and her white audiences.
Mississippi Goddam
Hound dogs on my trail,
School children sitting in jail,
Black cat cross my path,
I think every day’s going to be my last.
Lord have mercy on this land of mine,“Mississippi Goddam” is so powerful because the lyrics force you to think about Medgar Edgar, Emmet Till, Eric Garner, and countless other slain black men who were unjustly killed by evil men or by those who were dutifully sworn to protect and serve.
We all gonna get it in due time,
I don’t belong here,
I don’t belong there,
I even stopped believing in prayer.
Just for a moment,
imagine if you can how truly
broken and damaged inside
beyond all hope a God-fearing
person would have to be to
stop believing in the power of
prayer. How much horror?
How frightening would a beast
or a demon have to be to take
away your faith in the power
of the love of God? Nina’s cites
her own act of hopelessness:
“I even stopped believing in
prayer.” This is a testament
to the horrors of the brutality
of the times. Just as real is the
power of God in all of us:
“Though I walk in the midst of
trouble, You will revive me;
You will stretch out Your hand
against the wrath of my
enemies, and Your right hand
will save me.” (Psalm 138).
All you have to do is believe.
It’s amazing in life to
learn in who and where we find
our inspiration. Another great
lyricist touched my heart.
I hope you are able to continue
to walk with me. Nas said it
best in “Ether”:
I’ve been fucked over, left for dead, dissed and forgotten,How much can we take? Countless Emmet Tills and Trayvon Martins were “fucked over, left for dead, dissed and forgotten!” Mississippi Goddam!
Luck ran out, they hoped that I’d be gone, stiff and rotten,
Ya’ll just piss on me, shit on me, spit on my grave
Talk about me, laugh behind my back but in my face
Ya’ll some “well wishers,” friendly acting, envy hiding snakes.
It’s unbelievable that
“Ether” was written in 2001 by
a rapper describing his relationships
of betrayal, deception,
and maybe a little fantasy—
of “homicide,” heartbreak, and
sorrow. Nas foreshadowed in
his lyrics the account of a
national, tragic murder of an
innocent young black male over
a decade later. Walking home
one night, Trayvon Martin was
“fucked over, left for dead,
dissed and forgotten.” The legal
system failed him as it failed
Emmet Till in his sham of
a trial, where his killer was also
allowed to go free. How much
can we take?
My grandmother once
told me—and I truly believe
this—that “what you do in the
dark eventually comes to light,”
no matter how long it takes.
I believe justice will be served.
I believe in a day when we will
live in freedom—true freedom!
I believe the future will give us
freedom from fear of brutality
from corrupt principalities.
In life, a higher power
gives us the ability to gain
strength from one another,
past and present. So whoever
you are, and wherever you are,
I hope you fight to be the best
that you can be, live life, and
give love “’Till You Collapse.”
I hope my words can reach
you the way WYBC has empowered
me to stand on my
feet, to seek my inner strength,
and share my creativity. I
searched my entire life to find
a great place to belong. I stand
here today proud to be bold, black and beautiful. I salute
you, WYBC.
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