A Critically Sincere Aural
Carl Chen, Marc DeWitt, Yasushi Tanaka-Gutiez*
*Yasushi was MIA due to Nemo the Blizzard
2/8/2013, Friday, 4 pm~ EST
Stumbleine – Mixtape 3 / Four Tet – Rounds (2003)
Marc’s Aural Tracklist:
How to Dress Well – Set It Right
Bloc Party – Pioneers
Foals – Spanish Sahara
Pinback – Loro
I felt nothing. And I told him I felt nothing. He said he did too. Said he didn’t enjoy spending time with me, and that I treated him like shit. He said he loved me, but he didn’t really like me. That’s not really how I felt though. I used to. I used to feel anger, burning, riveting anger, and maybe even delight from the feeling. Vindicated.
But now nothing. Told him I was exhausted.
In a weird way, I felt at peace, somewhat relieved. There wasn’t love, no sort of forgiveness or reconciliation either. Just, well, nothing.
Maybe I couldn’t stay angry forever, I knew I didn’t want to. Maybe I learned to give it up.
That was over a month ago and that’s the last conversation I have had with my father.